Insomnia
I stare at the walls and the ceiling that enclose me in my mast, it's siphoning out my thoughts unruly that are focused on my past
And it seems that I just get passed in every lane that I progress, I can't find my rest and I'm sleeping less and less, I digress
There's a haunted image of me floating above me in my mental carapace, I stare at it, it has no face and refuses to ever leave this place
I close my eyes and it still yields hold, it reminds me of when the times were told, I would be free of myself, and yet, the truth unfolds
But if I speak up they'd be quick to place me in an institution, and all these god-fearing-folk would try to purify me through retribution
And that's not something that I could readily or easily accept, in your trials with insomnia does the judge say you're inept?
That you're never ever going to be the one that they're all going to see, my life's just filled with feats and falters, yeah, it's like a coin to me
My eyes are wide open, they're bloodshot from all this losing sleep, laid back in my bed, I've gotten awfully good at counting sheep
It'd seem they're endless and their numbers are ever consistently growing, the persistence is showing where all my darkest thoughts are stowing
It brings them to light only to prove they're covered in darkness, it starts this growing pain located right where my heart is
It spreads through my bones and ligaments, leaves me basking in bitterness, broken and sick of this, I've learned what a stigma is
And it goes like this, when the fire gets roaring, don't resist, just let the flames wash over you and yes I insist, no twist, raise your middles, get fucking pissed
Let the emotions out and take their course whether it's good or better, just find their source by utilizing diplomatic means, or by using force
So get down on your knees and put some prayers in, in desperate hope that it'll remove the sayer's sin, when the real truth utterly pales in comparison
These complications were created by none-other than ourselves, and if it helps, we're all living in different levels of our Hells
And the flames all burn the same color, one is another, we live undercover in a world where one must be a fighter or lover, we suffer
But wait.. I've strayed from the topic, I guess it's hard to unlock sleep or cop this when insomnia breaks all of the lockpicks
I brought this, I rock this, smash it on the lock and drop this, there's no time that can clock this and no speed that can stop this
But what am I saying? Who am I fooling? There's plenty of anger fueling the negative aspirations where these thoughts are pooling
They're bonding together, their bond is stronger than mine, maybe it's a sign that at one point or another I'll be lost in time
Or have I lost my mind, or maybe I'm lost in mine? Oh sleep how you eluded me, left me confined in a world of vodka, rum, whiskey, and wine
And when my eyes close forever that eclipse will finally be achieved, it's a nightmare I perceive with the thousand thoughts that I weave
Coming together in a web like I'm the thread spun by the spider, stuck now in place and it's too late to try to run or hide or,
Find and confide her, who's the decider, how can you pretend to be her provider when in your own head you've become the outsider
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I9VEt6fM...l=RapBeats
I stare at the walls and the ceiling that enclose me in my mast, it's siphoning out my thoughts unruly that are focused on my past
And it seems that I just get passed in every lane that I progress, I can't find my rest and I'm sleeping less and less, I digress
There's a haunted image of me floating above me in my mental carapace, I stare at it, it has no face and refuses to ever leave this place
I close my eyes and it still yields hold, it reminds me of when the times were told, I would be free of myself, and yet, the truth unfolds
But if I speak up they'd be quick to place me in an institution, and all these god-fearing-folk would try to purify me through retribution
And that's not something that I could readily or easily accept, in your trials with insomnia does the judge say you're inept?
That you're never ever going to be the one that they're all going to see, my life's just filled with feats and falters, yeah, it's like a coin to me
My eyes are wide open, they're bloodshot from all this losing sleep, laid back in my bed, I've gotten awfully good at counting sheep
It'd seem they're endless and their numbers are ever consistently growing, the persistence is showing where all my darkest thoughts are stowing
It brings them to light only to prove they're covered in darkness, it starts this growing pain located right where my heart is
It spreads through my bones and ligaments, leaves me basking in bitterness, broken and sick of this, I've learned what a stigma is
And it goes like this, when the fire gets roaring, don't resist, just let the flames wash over you and yes I insist, no twist, raise your middles, get fucking pissed
Let the emotions out and take their course whether it's good or better, just find their source by utilizing diplomatic means, or by using force
So get down on your knees and put some prayers in, in desperate hope that it'll remove the sayer's sin, when the real truth utterly pales in comparison
These complications were created by none-other than ourselves, and if it helps, we're all living in different levels of our Hells
And the flames all burn the same color, one is another, we live undercover in a world where one must be a fighter or lover, we suffer
But wait.. I've strayed from the topic, I guess it's hard to unlock sleep or cop this when insomnia breaks all of the lockpicks
I brought this, I rock this, smash it on the lock and drop this, there's no time that can clock this and no speed that can stop this
But what am I saying? Who am I fooling? There's plenty of anger fueling the negative aspirations where these thoughts are pooling
They're bonding together, their bond is stronger than mine, maybe it's a sign that at one point or another I'll be lost in time
Or have I lost my mind, or maybe I'm lost in mine? Oh sleep how you eluded me, left me confined in a world of vodka, rum, whiskey, and wine
And when my eyes close forever that eclipse will finally be achieved, it's a nightmare I perceive with the thousand thoughts that I weave
Coming together in a web like I'm the thread spun by the spider, stuck now in place and it's too late to try to run or hide or,
Find and confide her, who's the decider, how can you pretend to be her provider when in your own head you've become the outsider
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I9VEt6fM...l=RapBeats
Forever?
Oh, my darling,
If only you could see what war has done to me.
Oh, my darling,
If only you could see what war has done to me.
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