Ren was blindsided by genuine emotion from the King. She blinked up at him in shock. She wouldn't say the confusion was overriding the fear, but they were definitely mingling.
He hadn't been mad about her escape, not really. Not visibly. Hadn't seemed particularly fussed at all, actually, more like a teacher scolding a particularly troublesome student. But now he was pushing her hand into the ground, tight enough that it hurt, hard enough that she believed he would shatter it with a twitch. But not because she tried to escape. Because she wanted to be loved in return when she loved.
"I... I..." she stammered. She didn't know how to explain it to him and didn't know if she should. If he was angry with her, she wouldn't do any good stoking the fires, but she was terrible at putting them out.
"I... might jus' be a thing that happens to other people," she admitted, thinking of the explosion and the fear and a life full of hatred. "But is it tha' wrong to wanna be a good thing tha' happens to other people?" She bit her lip, regretting that she was talking even as she was saying it. "Am I supposed t'be satisfied at bein' somethin' feared or pitied or both? Why would anyone be content bein' the villain? I'm sick of it! I don't just want people to be happy, I wanna be the thing that makes 'em happy! And yeah, maybe that includes Gareth! Why should I torture him with the thought he might fix me if he just tries harder when he's not the one who broke me to begin with? I don' even know if I can be fixed!"
She was definitely, definitely getting her hand broken, and also probably her neck.
"Is it really so wrong to want someone to look at you the way you look at them? Isn't it normal that if you can't help but stare at someone in a crowd, to want them to stare back? I think that's jus' part o' bein' alive! Part o' likin' someone is hopin' they'll like you back! We're not islands, none of us! Yer highness, I am aware I don't deserve shit, but I still want it. I still dream about it. I never said I wasn't greedy an' I never said I wasn't selfish, an' if he wanted t'kill me, I wouldn't let him, cause that's not what carin' about someone is! That's jus' not carin' about yerself!"
Ah. Yes. Good plan all around. Yell at the angry dragon pinning you to the ground. Make sure he kills you, why not. Honestly, she did some real stupid shit sometimes for someone who said she wanted to live.
"I ran an' it was dumb! It was stupid an' yer right! But if y'really think I'm hopeless, why should I string him along? Jus' so he can be more upset later when y'kill me? I'm tryin' t'do the right thing! I'm always tryin'! I always fuck it up, but I swear to god, I been tryin'!"
Bree sat up a little taller, raised her chin proudly as she grinned. "He's been teaching me how to person better," she told Gareth, smiling. "I think he's a great influence on me. I've been here ten years and I'm still shit at bureaucracy."
She smiled wider, finally standing up off the ground, brushing off her grass-covered clothing. "You sure will be a catch once you're in the river!" she suggested cheerfully. "It'll only be a matter of time before people come around with their rods to catch you~"
There was literally no way she wasn't going to watch Declan get dunked into the river. This was a two-for-one special! The King was right, subtlety really did have its benefits! Too bad she was normally too stupid to think of it, honestly.
He hadn't been mad about her escape, not really. Not visibly. Hadn't seemed particularly fussed at all, actually, more like a teacher scolding a particularly troublesome student. But now he was pushing her hand into the ground, tight enough that it hurt, hard enough that she believed he would shatter it with a twitch. But not because she tried to escape. Because she wanted to be loved in return when she loved.
"I... I..." she stammered. She didn't know how to explain it to him and didn't know if she should. If he was angry with her, she wouldn't do any good stoking the fires, but she was terrible at putting them out.
"I... might jus' be a thing that happens to other people," she admitted, thinking of the explosion and the fear and a life full of hatred. "But is it tha' wrong to wanna be a good thing tha' happens to other people?" She bit her lip, regretting that she was talking even as she was saying it. "Am I supposed t'be satisfied at bein' somethin' feared or pitied or both? Why would anyone be content bein' the villain? I'm sick of it! I don't just want people to be happy, I wanna be the thing that makes 'em happy! And yeah, maybe that includes Gareth! Why should I torture him with the thought he might fix me if he just tries harder when he's not the one who broke me to begin with? I don' even know if I can be fixed!"
She was definitely, definitely getting her hand broken, and also probably her neck.
"Is it really so wrong to want someone to look at you the way you look at them? Isn't it normal that if you can't help but stare at someone in a crowd, to want them to stare back? I think that's jus' part o' bein' alive! Part o' likin' someone is hopin' they'll like you back! We're not islands, none of us! Yer highness, I am aware I don't deserve shit, but I still want it. I still dream about it. I never said I wasn't greedy an' I never said I wasn't selfish, an' if he wanted t'kill me, I wouldn't let him, cause that's not what carin' about someone is! That's jus' not carin' about yerself!"
Ah. Yes. Good plan all around. Yell at the angry dragon pinning you to the ground. Make sure he kills you, why not. Honestly, she did some real stupid shit sometimes for someone who said she wanted to live.
"I ran an' it was dumb! It was stupid an' yer right! But if y'really think I'm hopeless, why should I string him along? Jus' so he can be more upset later when y'kill me? I'm tryin' t'do the right thing! I'm always tryin'! I always fuck it up, but I swear to god, I been tryin'!"
Bree sat up a little taller, raised her chin proudly as she grinned. "He's been teaching me how to person better," she told Gareth, smiling. "I think he's a great influence on me. I've been here ten years and I'm still shit at bureaucracy."
She smiled wider, finally standing up off the ground, brushing off her grass-covered clothing. "You sure will be a catch once you're in the river!" she suggested cheerfully. "It'll only be a matter of time before people come around with their rods to catch you~"
There was literally no way she wasn't going to watch Declan get dunked into the river. This was a two-for-one special! The King was right, subtlety really did have its benefits! Too bad she was normally too stupid to think of it, honestly.
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