Ren let out a held breath at the news that Gareth was alright. Would be alright. Would be fine, would be better, could one day put this whole thing behind him and not think about it anymore.
The rest of the news was... mixed.
He'd said not to look for her? Of course he would. That was the whole point, to believe she ran. She nodded, hollowly. That would make the whole thing easier, if things went bad. He'd think Avi had done him a favor, letting her escape, and he wouldn't have to know. Wouldn't have that hanging over their heads.
"...Yeah," she said, quietly. She'd told herself she'd be bold as brass, announce everything to the King and just face whatever happened head on. But in the face of actually saying it out loud, she found herself unable to make eye contact. She didn't want to see his reaction, either way. "A lot. For a long time. He..." She took a deep breath, and plunged in. "When I first arrived in th' King's Guard, he was the one who did my introduction or whatever y'wanna call it. I can't... I can't read very well. So he read the... the contract to me. He told me how things were gonna be. But it wasn't... he jus' made shit up. Told me I was a prisoner, that Gareth was my work manager and he was my manager th' rest of the time. I didn't... I didn't have any reason t'think he was lyin'. It sounded right. I'd jus' been dragged off of death row, fer fuck's sake, it sounded exactly right. An' so fer the last year, he's been... he was," she corrected. Because he was dead, and he was gone and he couldn't do it anymore.
She ticked them off hollowly on her fingers, like if it was a list of facts, it couldn't hurt her. "Nothin' in my room. You saw it. Locked in there from six t' six every day. Never got to go outside. Limited meals, sometimes none at all, no breakfast or dinner, jus' lunch with Gareth. Wh. W... Corporal punishment," she finally forced out between clenched teeth. "I thought it was normal. It made sense, with what I was hearin' from everyone else. Which was limited cause, y'know, locked away in my room, couldn't talk t' people."
She was pacing again, frantic, anxious steps in a small path back and forth. "That's why I ran th' first time. I couldn't take it. An' that's why I ran this time. He told me..." She swallowed. "He told me you'd told Gareth to take a week off, and then summoned me. I figured... Well, I figured... Y'got bored after all." A tear leaked out of the corner of her eye, and she wiped it away furiously. "So I ran again. That was his plan, I'm pretty sure. I'd run an' he'd pin Gareth's death on me. He didn't expect me to go straight to Gareth's place."
She took a breath, or tried to; her lungs felt cramped and deflated in her chest. She risked a glance up at the King, to gauge his reaction. There was more, there was everything that happened after she got to Gareth's, but... She couldn't help finding his reaction to her reasons for running more pressing, at the moment.
The rest of the news was... mixed.
He'd said not to look for her? Of course he would. That was the whole point, to believe she ran. She nodded, hollowly. That would make the whole thing easier, if things went bad. He'd think Avi had done him a favor, letting her escape, and he wouldn't have to know. Wouldn't have that hanging over their heads.
"...Yeah," she said, quietly. She'd told herself she'd be bold as brass, announce everything to the King and just face whatever happened head on. But in the face of actually saying it out loud, she found herself unable to make eye contact. She didn't want to see his reaction, either way. "A lot. For a long time. He..." She took a deep breath, and plunged in. "When I first arrived in th' King's Guard, he was the one who did my introduction or whatever y'wanna call it. I can't... I can't read very well. So he read the... the contract to me. He told me how things were gonna be. But it wasn't... he jus' made shit up. Told me I was a prisoner, that Gareth was my work manager and he was my manager th' rest of the time. I didn't... I didn't have any reason t'think he was lyin'. It sounded right. I'd jus' been dragged off of death row, fer fuck's sake, it sounded exactly right. An' so fer the last year, he's been... he was," she corrected. Because he was dead, and he was gone and he couldn't do it anymore.
She ticked them off hollowly on her fingers, like if it was a list of facts, it couldn't hurt her. "Nothin' in my room. You saw it. Locked in there from six t' six every day. Never got to go outside. Limited meals, sometimes none at all, no breakfast or dinner, jus' lunch with Gareth. Wh. W... Corporal punishment," she finally forced out between clenched teeth. "I thought it was normal. It made sense, with what I was hearin' from everyone else. Which was limited cause, y'know, locked away in my room, couldn't talk t' people."
She was pacing again, frantic, anxious steps in a small path back and forth. "That's why I ran th' first time. I couldn't take it. An' that's why I ran this time. He told me..." She swallowed. "He told me you'd told Gareth to take a week off, and then summoned me. I figured... Well, I figured... Y'got bored after all." A tear leaked out of the corner of her eye, and she wiped it away furiously. "So I ran again. That was his plan, I'm pretty sure. I'd run an' he'd pin Gareth's death on me. He didn't expect me to go straight to Gareth's place."
She took a breath, or tried to; her lungs felt cramped and deflated in her chest. She risked a glance up at the King, to gauge his reaction. There was more, there was everything that happened after she got to Gareth's, but... She couldn't help finding his reaction to her reasons for running more pressing, at the moment.
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