Ren was halfway asleep when the King landed, her mind a dizzy, nausea-inducing mix of feedback. The only thing keeping her awake, really, was the headache.
The roar, however, well. That snapped her right out of that, didn't it?
She released her focus on the rats with a desperate relief as soon as she saw that Gareth was moving, although she couldn't really judge his state. But he was alive; she hadn't fucked up her judgment of his condition that badly before leaving him, at least. Finally, something had gone right. Very, very briefly right.
It might have been minutes or it might have been hours between when the King arrived and when he pushed open the door to the room Ren was in; she couldn't say. She spent them in tense terror. Her rats had retreated to various hiding spots around the castle. Timothy and Phoebe had both wanted to be with her, but she insisted they stay away. Whatever happened next, she'd be facing it alone.
It was impossible to read anything from the King's expression when he saw her, pacing by the bed to hide her shaking. She froze when she realized the door had opened. The fact that she couldn't read his expression was telling enough; she had never seen him this stony-faced in this form, not even when he'd caught her running through the mountains. She was briefly tempted to just run and make it easy for both of them, but that was a stupid instinct, another one worth ignoring. Still, all her clever words flew straight out of her mind, and when she opened her mouth, instead what came out was,
"Is he okay?"
She winced as the words left her mouth; it would be the last thing the King wanted to hear from her if he blamed her for Gareth's condition, which he probably did. Judging by his expression, she doubted Gareth'd had the opportunity to tell him much. Or maybe Gareth had told him everything, and that was the only reason she hadn't been killed instantly. Maybe with all her explanations, this would be the best it would get. She dug her fingers into her arms and tried to remember how to breathe.
"I dunno--I dunno what he told you," she started, haltingly. "It was... It was Colin, uh, you proly knew that, but. It was. All Colin." She wasn't making as much sense as she wanted. "Well. Not the rats, obviously, that was me, but the reason... Did... he tell you?" she asked hopefully, although what answer she was hopeful for, she wasn't sure. "Did Gareth tell you what Colin did to me," she clarified, "or do I... gotta go over it again." She suspected she'd be going over it a lot, if she lived, and that it would, in fact, grow worse with each re-telling the way she thought it would.
The roar, however, well. That snapped her right out of that, didn't it?
She released her focus on the rats with a desperate relief as soon as she saw that Gareth was moving, although she couldn't really judge his state. But he was alive; she hadn't fucked up her judgment of his condition that badly before leaving him, at least. Finally, something had gone right. Very, very briefly right.
It might have been minutes or it might have been hours between when the King arrived and when he pushed open the door to the room Ren was in; she couldn't say. She spent them in tense terror. Her rats had retreated to various hiding spots around the castle. Timothy and Phoebe had both wanted to be with her, but she insisted they stay away. Whatever happened next, she'd be facing it alone.
It was impossible to read anything from the King's expression when he saw her, pacing by the bed to hide her shaking. She froze when she realized the door had opened. The fact that she couldn't read his expression was telling enough; she had never seen him this stony-faced in this form, not even when he'd caught her running through the mountains. She was briefly tempted to just run and make it easy for both of them, but that was a stupid instinct, another one worth ignoring. Still, all her clever words flew straight out of her mind, and when she opened her mouth, instead what came out was,
"Is he okay?"
She winced as the words left her mouth; it would be the last thing the King wanted to hear from her if he blamed her for Gareth's condition, which he probably did. Judging by his expression, she doubted Gareth'd had the opportunity to tell him much. Or maybe Gareth had told him everything, and that was the only reason she hadn't been killed instantly. Maybe with all her explanations, this would be the best it would get. She dug her fingers into her arms and tried to remember how to breathe.
"I dunno--I dunno what he told you," she started, haltingly. "It was... It was Colin, uh, you proly knew that, but. It was. All Colin." She wasn't making as much sense as she wanted. "Well. Not the rats, obviously, that was me, but the reason... Did... he tell you?" she asked hopefully, although what answer she was hopeful for, she wasn't sure. "Did Gareth tell you what Colin did to me," she clarified, "or do I... gotta go over it again." She suspected she'd be going over it a lot, if she lived, and that it would, in fact, grow worse with each re-telling the way she thought it would.
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