"Your body ain't fine though!" Ren tried to yell, but her voice cracked. "You have a hole in you, you fuckin' idiot! Even if it's normally fine, this ain't normal! None of this is normal! You! Were! Stabbed! Through! Yer! Heart! Yer only alive because of weird demon bullshit, an' you didn't think that maybe, if neither of us understood what was happenin', it wasn't the time to go ejectin' yer magic demon soul out of yer barely alive body, you fuckin'!"
She was crying again. God fucking damnit.
"Only a little. I'm here, ain't I?" she asked stubbornly. "If you didn't die, then I couldn't possibly have died. I just briefly left my body fer a lil jaunt, found you drownin' in some nightmare astral lake an' pulled you out." It sounded completely insane when said out loud. She didn't have the words to describe what she saw.
He was right though. She didn't want to fight.
She felt better, in some ways, now that she'd thrown up. She was still cold, but she was starting to register it more as being cold, instead of just a numb lack of sensation. The pain was present, but the muscle cramps were less intense. Some of it, clearly, had been her body trying to cope with copious amounts of poison. That was fair. That was completely fair of her body. She crawled back over the floor to Gareth, slowly but with less random spasms then before. She collapsed against his side, relishing in his warmth. She needed him to never be anything but warm, ever again, forever.
"Yer right. We'll figure it out." She just kept yelling at him, like it was the only way she knew how to express emotion. Mostly because it was. But she didn't have the privilege to ignore the situation she'd created. There were dead rats. Everywhere. And she only had one solution to the issue, if she didn't want to tell Gareth about it, which she absolutely didn't. Apologetic and flinching, she reached out to Byron and Phoebe.
The rats that remained needed to take care of the dead. Slowly, one at a time, the ones that were still alive would have to drag the bodies of the deceased outside. They couldn't go far, not in this storm, so Gareth would probably still have mounds of dead rats to deal with when the snow thawed, but. They could... deal with it later, like he said. They just needed to not be inside, in this warmth. They would start to decay.
It wasn't a natural thing, for a rat to drag a rat corpse anywhere. The other rats might have been fine, but Phoebe and Byron had the presence of mind to comprehend the horror of the situation. There weren't many rats left, but in the end, she couldn't make them do it. She called them both to her, to crawl up under the blankets with her and Gareth, and try to give them what little comfort she could. She had no idea how to make this right. Any of it.
"It happened before," she told him quietly, even though he said he wanted to rest. "I wasn't jus'..." She was. She was just. She was just scared and desperate enough to risk it because if they both died, that was still preferable to the alternative where he did and she didn't. "I had to. I'm not sorry." She shivered, and tried to press even closer against him. "...We gotta start cuddlin' under better circumstances," she said with a hoarse, somewhat forced laugh. "This is gettin' ridiculous."
She was crying again. God fucking damnit.
"Only a little. I'm here, ain't I?" she asked stubbornly. "If you didn't die, then I couldn't possibly have died. I just briefly left my body fer a lil jaunt, found you drownin' in some nightmare astral lake an' pulled you out." It sounded completely insane when said out loud. She didn't have the words to describe what she saw.
He was right though. She didn't want to fight.
She felt better, in some ways, now that she'd thrown up. She was still cold, but she was starting to register it more as being cold, instead of just a numb lack of sensation. The pain was present, but the muscle cramps were less intense. Some of it, clearly, had been her body trying to cope with copious amounts of poison. That was fair. That was completely fair of her body. She crawled back over the floor to Gareth, slowly but with less random spasms then before. She collapsed against his side, relishing in his warmth. She needed him to never be anything but warm, ever again, forever.
"Yer right. We'll figure it out." She just kept yelling at him, like it was the only way she knew how to express emotion. Mostly because it was. But she didn't have the privilege to ignore the situation she'd created. There were dead rats. Everywhere. And she only had one solution to the issue, if she didn't want to tell Gareth about it, which she absolutely didn't. Apologetic and flinching, she reached out to Byron and Phoebe.
The rats that remained needed to take care of the dead. Slowly, one at a time, the ones that were still alive would have to drag the bodies of the deceased outside. They couldn't go far, not in this storm, so Gareth would probably still have mounds of dead rats to deal with when the snow thawed, but. They could... deal with it later, like he said. They just needed to not be inside, in this warmth. They would start to decay.
It wasn't a natural thing, for a rat to drag a rat corpse anywhere. The other rats might have been fine, but Phoebe and Byron had the presence of mind to comprehend the horror of the situation. There weren't many rats left, but in the end, she couldn't make them do it. She called them both to her, to crawl up under the blankets with her and Gareth, and try to give them what little comfort she could. She had no idea how to make this right. Any of it.
"It happened before," she told him quietly, even though he said he wanted to rest. "I wasn't jus'..." She was. She was just. She was just scared and desperate enough to risk it because if they both died, that was still preferable to the alternative where he did and she didn't. "I had to. I'm not sorry." She shivered, and tried to press even closer against him. "...We gotta start cuddlin' under better circumstances," she said with a hoarse, somewhat forced laugh. "This is gettin' ridiculous."
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