“I dunno,” she mumbled when asked for a list of those she’d disappointed. “Everyone probably,” she continued. Poking at the couch all the while. Like most of her feelings of self worth she had come to this conclusion on her own. It was possible that no one was disappointed in her. It was also possible that no one blamed her for her behavior, or condemned her for the choices she’d made. Her own guilty feelings skewing her perception of the way others perceived her. Too often she compared herself to her brothers, and too often she found herself lacking.
She tilted her head back to look up at him when he revealed that detail about himself. She hadn’t known that about him; she wasn’t sure if she knew anything about his life before their mother had come into it. He’d caught her attention with brief mention that he had been a delinquent. Anita toed the line in being one herself, her only saving grace was insofar she’d not been caught. Silver tail picked back up with its gentle sway when warms lips met the back of her hand. She smiled, reclaiming her hand and mumbling something that sounded suspiciously like ‘I love you.’ Pushing herself into a sitting position, she sat up next to her and crossed her legs.
Anita turned her attention to the television, and almost offered to put him back on Cain’s account. Both to mess with her brother and to save her position in second place. She shrugged her shoulders at Owen’s question. “I dunno," she repeated. The phrase was her default answer for everything. Questions that were too difficult to answer. Her response could have been true. It was just as possible that she hadn’t put any thought into it, as it was that she’d thought about it a lot. For the time being, she didn’t seem keen on the discussion.
“What are you going to do about mom?” she asked. Changing the subject. More likely to answer his questions, if he also answered hers.
Rylan smoked and listened in silence as Cain recounted the details with Akiko to her. She hummed as she recalled the pictures in question, having seen them herself. The images were mild, it was the accompanying captions that were getting him in trouble. Rylan suspected there were some hidden motives behind his friends choice of words, but for the moment she kept the thought to herself. Letting her son speak. She smothered her cigarette against the side of the steps, and kept the butt close, mindful of the way Cain had done the same.
Her free hand lifted to cover the one that rested against her arm. She patted it reassuringly before it was pulled away from her. Rylan was quiet for a moment when he had finished speaking. Absorbing what he had said and carefully formulating a response. Cain was a series of unmarked landmines and every conversation was a new way of navigating them. She opened with, “I believe you.” Green eyes scanned the anxiety in his features; she wore the same soft smile on hers. It was meant to be comforting. It was meant to say, I’m listening to you and you feelings are valid, without the actual words pushing him away.
“A break is a good thing,” she said, dipping her head to catch his gaze. Her brows lifted in a believe me sort of manner that was meant to stifle any immediate protests. “It means she still wants something from you,” she voiced, unaware the words were similar to ones Owen had said to him. “And sure,” she continued, going through the motions of lighting another cigarette. “You don't know what she wants.” Smoke fell with her words. “But I can give you a few guesses? She wants to know that you want her. You were keeping secrets from her, choosing this other woman over her. Even if that wasn't your intention it's how you made her feel. She left the ball in your court, love, and you can fix this if you want to.”
She paused, looking away from him to glance upwards at the overcast night sky. She watched him from her periphery when she asked, “do you want to?” Her less obvious question being were you happy?
She tilted her head back to look up at him when he revealed that detail about himself. She hadn’t known that about him; she wasn’t sure if she knew anything about his life before their mother had come into it. He’d caught her attention with brief mention that he had been a delinquent. Anita toed the line in being one herself, her only saving grace was insofar she’d not been caught. Silver tail picked back up with its gentle sway when warms lips met the back of her hand. She smiled, reclaiming her hand and mumbling something that sounded suspiciously like ‘I love you.’ Pushing herself into a sitting position, she sat up next to her and crossed her legs.
Anita turned her attention to the television, and almost offered to put him back on Cain’s account. Both to mess with her brother and to save her position in second place. She shrugged her shoulders at Owen’s question. “I dunno," she repeated. The phrase was her default answer for everything. Questions that were too difficult to answer. Her response could have been true. It was just as possible that she hadn’t put any thought into it, as it was that she’d thought about it a lot. For the time being, she didn’t seem keen on the discussion.
“What are you going to do about mom?” she asked. Changing the subject. More likely to answer his questions, if he also answered hers.
Rylan smoked and listened in silence as Cain recounted the details with Akiko to her. She hummed as she recalled the pictures in question, having seen them herself. The images were mild, it was the accompanying captions that were getting him in trouble. Rylan suspected there were some hidden motives behind his friends choice of words, but for the moment she kept the thought to herself. Letting her son speak. She smothered her cigarette against the side of the steps, and kept the butt close, mindful of the way Cain had done the same.
Her free hand lifted to cover the one that rested against her arm. She patted it reassuringly before it was pulled away from her. Rylan was quiet for a moment when he had finished speaking. Absorbing what he had said and carefully formulating a response. Cain was a series of unmarked landmines and every conversation was a new way of navigating them. She opened with, “I believe you.” Green eyes scanned the anxiety in his features; she wore the same soft smile on hers. It was meant to be comforting. It was meant to say, I’m listening to you and you feelings are valid, without the actual words pushing him away.
“A break is a good thing,” she said, dipping her head to catch his gaze. Her brows lifted in a believe me sort of manner that was meant to stifle any immediate protests. “It means she still wants something from you,” she voiced, unaware the words were similar to ones Owen had said to him. “And sure,” she continued, going through the motions of lighting another cigarette. “You don't know what she wants.” Smoke fell with her words. “But I can give you a few guesses? She wants to know that you want her. You were keeping secrets from her, choosing this other woman over her. Even if that wasn't your intention it's how you made her feel. She left the ball in your court, love, and you can fix this if you want to.”
She paused, looking away from him to glance upwards at the overcast night sky. She watched him from her periphery when she asked, “do you want to?” Her less obvious question being were you happy?
The following 1 user Likes megs's post: saronym
« Next Oldest | Next Newest »
Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-07-2015, 02:15 PM
Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-07-2015, 02:24 PM
Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 09-12-2015, 07:38 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-25-2015, 11:47 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-28-2015, 06:28 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 11-14-2015, 02:49 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 11-17-2015, 03:06 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 11-17-2015, 06:26 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 11-18-2015, 11:44 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 01-08-2016, 02:41 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 01-13-2016, 06:38 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-15-2016, 12:10 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 09-15-2016, 09:39 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-16-2016, 11:58 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 09-18-2016, 11:03 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-19-2016, 12:08 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 09-22-2016, 04:11 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-22-2016, 07:48 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 09-27-2016, 08:00 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-28-2016, 02:36 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 09-29-2016, 09:29 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-30-2016, 11:41 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-01-2016, 12:24 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-01-2016, 01:06 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-03-2016, 08:56 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-04-2016, 11:05 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-05-2016, 11:16 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-08-2016, 05:17 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-12-2016, 09:08 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-12-2016, 11:27 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-13-2016, 01:37 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-13-2016, 02:10 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-16-2016, 10:21 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-16-2016, 12:01 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-20-2016, 04:45 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-21-2016, 11:18 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-22-2016, 12:09 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-22-2016, 12:50 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-24-2016, 05:23 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-25-2016, 11:47 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-26-2016, 10:04 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-26-2016, 11:16 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-26-2016, 05:29 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-27-2016, 07:51 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-27-2016, 01:56 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-27-2016, 02:44 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-27-2016, 04:05 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-27-2016, 04:30 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-29-2016, 03:40 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-29-2016, 08:41 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-30-2016, 11:46 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-31-2016, 01:41 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 11-03-2016, 12:28 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 11-03-2016, 05:36 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 11-11-2016, 04:17 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 11-12-2016, 02:58 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 11-17-2016, 10:39 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 11-18-2016, 03:23 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 11-19-2016, 01:14 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 11-26-2016, 09:13 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 11-30-2016, 09:25 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 12-01-2016, 09:59 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 12-02-2016, 11:51 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 12-03-2016, 06:22 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 12-03-2016, 03:38 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 12-03-2016, 04:41 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 12-03-2016, 05:30 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 12-03-2016, 06:06 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 12-07-2016, 10:52 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 12-08-2016, 01:37 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 12-17-2016, 11:53 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 12-18-2016, 12:40 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 01-06-2017, 06:13 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 01-07-2017, 04:35 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 01-10-2017, 09:20 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 01-11-2017, 11:11 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 01-22-2017, 11:37 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 01-22-2017, 12:17 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 02-01-2017, 08:12 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 02-02-2017, 02:23 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 02-20-2017, 08:37 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 02-23-2017, 12:22 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 04-10-2017, 07:35 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 04-18-2017, 09:10 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 04-23-2017, 05:20 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 04-24-2017, 01:59 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 04-25-2017, 08:41 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 04-25-2017, 11:34 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 05-10-2017, 07:41 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 05-12-2017, 03:52 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 05-12-2017, 06:43 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 05-12-2017, 07:24 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 05-12-2017, 08:02 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 05-15-2017, 11:56 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 05-23-2017, 07:12 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 05-24-2017, 10:44 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 05-26-2017, 12:48 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 05-26-2017, 08:32 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 05-31-2017, 01:13 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 06-12-2017, 09:49 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 06-13-2017, 08:15 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 06-23-2017, 02:37 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 06-25-2017, 01:17 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 06-27-2017, 08:41 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 06-28-2017, 10:12 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 06-30-2017, 09:00 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-13-2017, 11:45 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 07-14-2017, 06:41 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-19-2017, 09:50 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 07-24-2017, 05:08 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-26-2017, 04:34 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 07-26-2017, 06:07 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-27-2017, 02:45 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 07-27-2017, 04:45 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-30-2017, 04:00 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 07-30-2017, 10:30 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 08-01-2017, 09:54 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 08-03-2017, 12:30 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 08-15-2017, 04:20 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-25-2017, 06:16 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-17-2017, 02:20 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 10-18-2017, 09:12 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 10-30-2017, 02:52 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 11-04-2017, 11:08 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 11-22-2017, 12:58 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 12-28-2017, 10:51 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 01-06-2018, 11:54 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 01-07-2018, 12:29 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 01-07-2018, 07:04 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 01-07-2018, 09:33 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 01-07-2018, 10:33 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 01-08-2018, 10:15 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 01-11-2018, 10:08 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 01-14-2018, 05:06 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 02-18-2018, 08:43 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 03-25-2018, 08:52 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 04-15-2018, 01:10 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 05-17-2018, 01:01 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 05-20-2018, 10:16 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 06-27-2018, 04:29 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-01-2018, 10:54 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 07-04-2018, 05:00 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-12-2018, 11:40 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 07-21-2018, 01:04 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-24-2018, 03:46 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 07-27-2018, 04:40 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 08-09-2018, 10:40 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 03-10-2019, 04:47 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 03-09-2019, 05:52 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 03-15-2019, 12:10 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 09-04-2019, 04:44 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-21-2020, 08:07 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-18-2019, 10:22 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 07-23-2020, 05:44 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 07-24-2020, 08:18 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 08-25-2020, 10:38 AM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by saronym - 09-12-2020, 12:49 PM
RE: Glass Houses [Closed] - by megs - 09-25-2020, 12:20 PM