Another deep drag of the cigarette. They weren't looking at each other, both of them staring down at their hands. Akiko watched the awkward way he linked their fingers together, like he had never touched her before. But, he wasn't really, touching her. She was just another thing to fidget with. She pulled her hand away, fingers trailing across his. She tried to memorize the feel of him, smoke falling from her own mouth in a sigh.
He wasn't really listening to her. She could tell. He was prone to picking bit and pieces of the conversation that he wanted to hear. She looked up once, to watch his ears, he would hate it if he caught her, but she risked it.
"Cain," she said his name softly, disagreement in her tone. She shook her head. They both knew his response wasn't the truth. She straightened her posture so she was out of reach. Not that she expected him to reach out to her. She filled the silence with pulls on the cigarette to gather her thoughts. "Just… a break," she repeated the word like it would clarify something. Were her words really that different from the way he was interpreting them?
"How could you not see where this is coming from?" she asked, flicking ash and cocking her head. Hair fell over her shoulder, and she pushed it back with her free hand. She kept her tone low and even. Curiosity, not accusations. "Ten years, Cain. We've been together for ten years, and you think I can't tell when something is wrong?" Akiko crushed the spent butt in the ashtray and pushed her fingers through her hair. Her own special fidgeting.
"We don't talk," she started by way of explanation. "We fight, or we ignore each other. You avoid me with work or the garage. You…don't touch me. You don't let me touch you." Her voice was hardly above a whisper at this point. Anything louder and the lump in her throat would have been obvious.
"I don't want you to be with me out of habit."
I want you to want me. She didn't say it. Didn't want to sound so desperate, and needy when she was exactly both of those things. She watched the way smoke fell from his lips, the last time she had kissed him she couldn’t recall. She wanted to now, but she resisted. This decision was for the best.
He wasn't really listening to her. She could tell. He was prone to picking bit and pieces of the conversation that he wanted to hear. She looked up once, to watch his ears, he would hate it if he caught her, but she risked it.
"Cain," she said his name softly, disagreement in her tone. She shook her head. They both knew his response wasn't the truth. She straightened her posture so she was out of reach. Not that she expected him to reach out to her. She filled the silence with pulls on the cigarette to gather her thoughts. "Just… a break," she repeated the word like it would clarify something. Were her words really that different from the way he was interpreting them?
"How could you not see where this is coming from?" she asked, flicking ash and cocking her head. Hair fell over her shoulder, and she pushed it back with her free hand. She kept her tone low and even. Curiosity, not accusations. "Ten years, Cain. We've been together for ten years, and you think I can't tell when something is wrong?" Akiko crushed the spent butt in the ashtray and pushed her fingers through her hair. Her own special fidgeting.
"We don't talk," she started by way of explanation. "We fight, or we ignore each other. You avoid me with work or the garage. You…don't touch me. You don't let me touch you." Her voice was hardly above a whisper at this point. Anything louder and the lump in her throat would have been obvious.
"I don't want you to be with me out of habit."
I want you to want me. She didn't say it. Didn't want to sound so desperate, and needy when she was exactly both of those things. She watched the way smoke fell from his lips, the last time she had kissed him she couldn’t recall. She wanted to now, but she resisted. This decision was for the best.
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