When one hyper vigilantly maintains a defensive emotional posture, eventually almost anything can feel like little attacks, little affronts to one’s person. And so, when Akiko nonverbally declined to partake in beer with him, Cain felt besieged by rejection. If he hadn’t acted like he wanted Akiko to have a beer with him maybe her denial wouldn’t have felt like criticism. Or so went his logic.
As Akiko rose from petting the dog, he inspected her somewhat surreptitiously. She looked defensive or uncomfortable the way she rolled down her sleeves to cover her arms and folded them protectively in front of her. He had the urge to reach out and touch her and ask her what she was thinking, but her glance to his tail ruined the feeling. He then looked away, embarrassed and exposed. It was easier to hide his troubled face behind a long drink than to risk trying to claim the affection he still craved from her. Especially when the sting of rejected beer was still upon him.
When she offered to get something else for dinner the next night, he shrugged. “It’s whatever.” Waffling on his wishes was another product of his assumed indifference and defensiveness. No expectations no disappointment was a mantra of sorts. His ears were beginning to feel uncomfortable under his hat. They twitched in protest to being crunched down. It made his skin crawl to feel them struggling against the fabric. He had no patience to endure the sensation and snatched the beanie off freeing his crumpled ears which sprang back into shape.
“The usual shitstorm.” Came his reply to her inquiry about his day. Cain rarely shared anything about work so he felt the urge to qualify why it sounded like he hated his job. “Indigo had a court date for a speeding ticket. So, I was stuck with the new tech who is pure incompetence.” Cain didn’t elaborate further and fell into silence. He was satisfied with that vague response.
During a few moments of uncomfortable silence, Cain fiddled with his near-shoulder length hair self consciously. He combed at it with his fingers feeling that some static charge from taking the hat off made the finer and shorter stands stand out.
“What are you planning on staying up tonight--?” The question, in reference to her making coffee, came out sharp like an accusation. He cringed and softened his voice. “ --um, do you have some work to do, or something?” He hoped that would suffice as bait to get her rambling at him about lesson planning, the school, other teachers, or anything. He felt awkward filling the quiet.
As Akiko rose from petting the dog, he inspected her somewhat surreptitiously. She looked defensive or uncomfortable the way she rolled down her sleeves to cover her arms and folded them protectively in front of her. He had the urge to reach out and touch her and ask her what she was thinking, but her glance to his tail ruined the feeling. He then looked away, embarrassed and exposed. It was easier to hide his troubled face behind a long drink than to risk trying to claim the affection he still craved from her. Especially when the sting of rejected beer was still upon him.
When she offered to get something else for dinner the next night, he shrugged. “It’s whatever.” Waffling on his wishes was another product of his assumed indifference and defensiveness. No expectations no disappointment was a mantra of sorts. His ears were beginning to feel uncomfortable under his hat. They twitched in protest to being crunched down. It made his skin crawl to feel them struggling against the fabric. He had no patience to endure the sensation and snatched the beanie off freeing his crumpled ears which sprang back into shape.
“The usual shitstorm.” Came his reply to her inquiry about his day. Cain rarely shared anything about work so he felt the urge to qualify why it sounded like he hated his job. “Indigo had a court date for a speeding ticket. So, I was stuck with the new tech who is pure incompetence.” Cain didn’t elaborate further and fell into silence. He was satisfied with that vague response.
During a few moments of uncomfortable silence, Cain fiddled with his near-shoulder length hair self consciously. He combed at it with his fingers feeling that some static charge from taking the hat off made the finer and shorter stands stand out.
“What are you planning on staying up tonight--?” The question, in reference to her making coffee, came out sharp like an accusation. He cringed and softened his voice. “ --um, do you have some work to do, or something?” He hoped that would suffice as bait to get her rambling at him about lesson planning, the school, other teachers, or anything. He felt awkward filling the quiet.
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