"Don't," she pleaded, pulling her gaze away from her reflection and opening the door to return to her bedroom. "Please don’t call it that - it wasn't like that." She understood that he was ashamed, but she wouldn't let him skew the moment into something so disgusting. He was talking to her like she was only eighteen, just barely on the brink of giving consent, and not like she was almost twenty-five.
She still felt stupid despite his attempts to ensure her otherwise. She didn't feel like any of the compliments he was paying her were fitting, because they weren't doing her any good. What did any of those things matter? He kept saying she find someone worthy. She didn't like it. She wanted him, and she couldn't have him. She didn't want anyone else, and that didn't change no matter how many times he suggested it.
"No, it's not okay. Not really. "
Back in the confines of her own room, she started floating again. Suspended, lazily, as she listened to him talk, because she guessed this was the last time she would hear his voice and it wouldn't be talking about Baltic paganism.
"Good bye, Professor Bell," was what she finally said when he'd finished. He counted on her to be an adult now, but not in regards to their affair. There was strange tone of finality to the farewell. Voice louder, clearer than it had been previously.
She hung up the phone without waiting for a response, and let it slip from her hand to float around with her. She wanted to be angry with him, but she couldn't be. Which in turn only made her angry at herself. She began to wonder if she could actually return to class with him; if she could really pretend that nothing happened. She tried to remember the way she acted before. She couldn't. She could only think of the accidentally flirtatious comment, that had set everything in motion.
One day, when she could look back on this as a lesson learned, she would give herself brownie points for not crying.
She still felt stupid despite his attempts to ensure her otherwise. She didn't feel like any of the compliments he was paying her were fitting, because they weren't doing her any good. What did any of those things matter? He kept saying she find someone worthy. She didn't like it. She wanted him, and she couldn't have him. She didn't want anyone else, and that didn't change no matter how many times he suggested it.
"No, it's not okay. Not really. "
Back in the confines of her own room, she started floating again. Suspended, lazily, as she listened to him talk, because she guessed this was the last time she would hear his voice and it wouldn't be talking about Baltic paganism.
"Good bye, Professor Bell," was what she finally said when he'd finished. He counted on her to be an adult now, but not in regards to their affair. There was strange tone of finality to the farewell. Voice louder, clearer than it had been previously.
She hung up the phone without waiting for a response, and let it slip from her hand to float around with her. She wanted to be angry with him, but she couldn't be. Which in turn only made her angry at herself. She began to wonder if she could actually return to class with him; if she could really pretend that nothing happened. She tried to remember the way she acted before. She couldn't. She could only think of the accidentally flirtatious comment, that had set everything in motion.
One day, when she could look back on this as a lesson learned, she would give herself brownie points for not crying.
I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you.
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