Kreska had been enjoying the rare experience of being the center of positive attention, warm and fuzzy and pleased in ways that she would never admit to. Very few people were ever impressed by her, even fewer impressed by her knowledge.
It was a tangible thing when the mood of the room changed, that pleased warmth replaced with a terrible chill. The way her face fell as she realized she'd said something wrong was subtle and fleeting, shuttering and becoming closed off almost immediately. Aloof rather than letting her face show the stomach-twisting disappointment that she'd managed to ruin something without even meaning to.
It was fine. It was whatever. She shouldn't have been trying to show off, anyway.
Fuck it. Fuck 'em.
She wasn't quite clear on why exactly what she'd said was wrong, but she shied away from thinking about it the way she'd shy from a hot stove, feeling intangibly wounded by whatever had just happened. Lulled by Rocket's tendency to let her do as she pleased without too much comment, she'd opened up in all the little ways she didn't allow herself; the slightest hint of a rebuke for any reason, and she slammed back shut. She was immediately resentful of everyone around her, more conscious of the skin she showed.
She followed Rocket in silence, feigning disinterest in anything but her own fingernails.
starrunner - nova - nova? - bad - wrong - why - idiot - idiot - idiot - whatever - nova? - shouldn't have said anything - why - fuck - whatever
"Yeh," she shrugged, non-committal. She pulled her pants higher, impatient, then crossed her arms. "Prolly oughtta head out."
She wanted a cigarette. She wanted a drink. She wanted to be home and alone.
fuckupfuckupfuckupfuckupfuckup
It was a tangible thing when the mood of the room changed, that pleased warmth replaced with a terrible chill. The way her face fell as she realized she'd said something wrong was subtle and fleeting, shuttering and becoming closed off almost immediately. Aloof rather than letting her face show the stomach-twisting disappointment that she'd managed to ruin something without even meaning to.
It was fine. It was whatever. She shouldn't have been trying to show off, anyway.
Fuck it. Fuck 'em.
She wasn't quite clear on why exactly what she'd said was wrong, but she shied away from thinking about it the way she'd shy from a hot stove, feeling intangibly wounded by whatever had just happened. Lulled by Rocket's tendency to let her do as she pleased without too much comment, she'd opened up in all the little ways she didn't allow herself; the slightest hint of a rebuke for any reason, and she slammed back shut. She was immediately resentful of everyone around her, more conscious of the skin she showed.
She followed Rocket in silence, feigning disinterest in anything but her own fingernails.
starrunner - nova - nova? - bad - wrong - why - idiot - idiot - idiot - whatever - nova? - shouldn't have said anything - why - fuck - whatever
"Yeh," she shrugged, non-committal. She pulled her pants higher, impatient, then crossed her arms. "Prolly oughtta head out."
She wanted a cigarette. She wanted a drink. She wanted to be home and alone.
fuckupfuckupfuckupfuckupfuckup
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