Veronica went very still. Cigarette halfway to her lips as she stared, vacant and wide-eyed into the skyline. If there had been anyone there to look at her, they would have instantly known something was up thanks to her tendency to fidget.
For the first time, she was willing to realize that this was also her fault. She thought she could get away with placing most of the blame on him. All she'd done was comment on her lipstick. He'd been the one to grab her hips, to turn her around and bend her over the desk. But she had let him. She had skipped all the preliminaries, and gone right to fucking.
She should have asked him those things. She should have been able to keep it casual and not let her desire overwhelm her. She should have already known that he didn't like going to the movies, and what he liked to do on the weekends. But she didn't, and now it felt like it was too late.
"I just…I-uhm." She stuttered and rubbed her hand across her nose, trying not to burn herself. She substituted smoking and sniffling for talking because she didn't know what to say. She had spent most of the afternoon trying to think of ways to counter the points he would inevitably think up. She'd managed a few. Like how he was free to sleep during the day, because she was busy during that day. Or how he didn't need to take her out because she wasn't that high maintenance. She didn't care that he was older than her, she didn't care that he was a vampire.
"I'm sorry," she managed, voice small and quiet. "I know I should have done things differently, and I know things wouldn't exactly be what some consider normal. I don't want nicer. I just.." she paused, swallowed. She kicked her toe against the sliding glass door before she continued, closing her eyes. "I just want you, and I know it's stupid and I can't explain why, but I just do. And I'm sorry, because that's stupid. And I know I should stop trying to talk you into it, because I know you've made up your mind. I just. Wanted to say that. While I could."
She sighed, another cigarette gone, but instead of lighting another she pushed her empty fingers through her hair to get it away from her face. "I'm not worth breaking the rules for either." She stared at herself in the glass door, and hoped that she sounded more convincing than she looked. She watched the way her mouth formed ugly lies, because her voice barely registered in her own ears. "We can pretend that nothing ever happened. Everything can be normal. I promise."
For the first time, she was willing to realize that this was also her fault. She thought she could get away with placing most of the blame on him. All she'd done was comment on her lipstick. He'd been the one to grab her hips, to turn her around and bend her over the desk. But she had let him. She had skipped all the preliminaries, and gone right to fucking.
She should have asked him those things. She should have been able to keep it casual and not let her desire overwhelm her. She should have already known that he didn't like going to the movies, and what he liked to do on the weekends. But she didn't, and now it felt like it was too late.
"I just…I-uhm." She stuttered and rubbed her hand across her nose, trying not to burn herself. She substituted smoking and sniffling for talking because she didn't know what to say. She had spent most of the afternoon trying to think of ways to counter the points he would inevitably think up. She'd managed a few. Like how he was free to sleep during the day, because she was busy during that day. Or how he didn't need to take her out because she wasn't that high maintenance. She didn't care that he was older than her, she didn't care that he was a vampire.
"I'm sorry," she managed, voice small and quiet. "I know I should have done things differently, and I know things wouldn't exactly be what some consider normal. I don't want nicer. I just.." she paused, swallowed. She kicked her toe against the sliding glass door before she continued, closing her eyes. "I just want you, and I know it's stupid and I can't explain why, but I just do. And I'm sorry, because that's stupid. And I know I should stop trying to talk you into it, because I know you've made up your mind. I just. Wanted to say that. While I could."
She sighed, another cigarette gone, but instead of lighting another she pushed her empty fingers through her hair to get it away from her face. "I'm not worth breaking the rules for either." She stared at herself in the glass door, and hoped that she sounded more convincing than she looked. She watched the way her mouth formed ugly lies, because her voice barely registered in her own ears. "We can pretend that nothing ever happened. Everything can be normal. I promise."
I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you.
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