"I know you're not," he sighed, trailing behind her. Just because she wasn't trying didn't mean she wouldn't do it. He didn't think she did that good of a job, actually. Although at the time he'd assumed he was projecting. Wanting her to be as attracted to him as he was to her. Ready to pounce the first time she made it obvious.
God, he'd made a huge mess of things.
He came to a stop, too close to her, but anything would be too close to her. She made it sound so sweet, that all she'd wanted was to make him happy. As if he'd ruined a gift she'd tried to give him. A hand beneath her chin kept her from tilting her face away.
"I am not your project," he said, as gently as he could. "Happiness is for the living." He let her go to take the cigarette from between her fingers, taking a drag without asking. "I like things that are bad for me," he said, words exhaled with smoke. He offered it back to her rather than keeping it or putting it out, even if that would have been a favor. "That's why I'm dead now. Learn from my mistakes."
He might have protested that he was perfectly happy during lectures, but that wasn't true. Lectures were something he had to get through. He didn't know how he'd go about sounding happy. When he read, when he listened to music, he didn't say anything at all. Better to accept that he was old and miserable and couldn't be fixed.
She'd tried to make him happy, and all she'd gotten for her trouble was depressed. Maybe if she gave up it would cheer her up again. He wanted her to be happy, too; the difference was she'd been doing just fine before he'd shown up.
God, he'd made a huge mess of things.
He came to a stop, too close to her, but anything would be too close to her. She made it sound so sweet, that all she'd wanted was to make him happy. As if he'd ruined a gift she'd tried to give him. A hand beneath her chin kept her from tilting her face away.
"I am not your project," he said, as gently as he could. "Happiness is for the living." He let her go to take the cigarette from between her fingers, taking a drag without asking. "I like things that are bad for me," he said, words exhaled with smoke. He offered it back to her rather than keeping it or putting it out, even if that would have been a favor. "That's why I'm dead now. Learn from my mistakes."
He might have protested that he was perfectly happy during lectures, but that wasn't true. Lectures were something he had to get through. He didn't know how he'd go about sounding happy. When he read, when he listened to music, he didn't say anything at all. Better to accept that he was old and miserable and couldn't be fixed.
She'd tried to make him happy, and all she'd gotten for her trouble was depressed. Maybe if she gave up it would cheer her up again. He wanted her to be happy, too; the difference was she'd been doing just fine before he'd shown up.
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