Curious, always curious – it was a constant in the taste of her, something to be ignored as he tried to detect flavors that might interest him. Yet, he was coming to realize, her curiosity was for curiosity's sake, entirely as earnest as she claimed.
Ordinarily curiosity spoke of something else, a dark passion, secret lusts to which he might appeal. It was those dark things that he so enjoyed, drawing out shameful pleasures and the taste emotions acquired when flavored by vulnerability, the strength of emotion when it was born of taboo.
When he was being nice.
When he wasn't, he enjoyed the strength of emotion of vulnerability that had been betrayed, of shame itself, the fear of revelation and the pain of rejection.
But none of those things, nice or not, were available to him here. Curiosity for curiosity's sake, an absence of desires deep or dark. Despite their flirtations, she bore no meaningful resemblance to his usual prey.
A learning experience, then, in socializing for the sake of socialization rather than contact as a form of consumption.
"I suppose," he said mildly, for he could think of no tactful way to explain that making awful things more awful had long been his past-time. Not without a conversation he had no interest in having. He'd bared as much as he cared to this night, and would offer no more than he needed to in that regard.
He grinned. "It is a matter of, shall we say, opportunity costs?" he suggested. "These things are not wasteful unto themselves, but in comparison to what one might spend time doing instead, they seem wasteful indeed. One is a thing at which I am merely adequate, while another is something at which I am magnificent." He paused. "Or so I have been told, and I choose to believe it."
Ordinarily curiosity spoke of something else, a dark passion, secret lusts to which he might appeal. It was those dark things that he so enjoyed, drawing out shameful pleasures and the taste emotions acquired when flavored by vulnerability, the strength of emotion when it was born of taboo.
When he was being nice.
When he wasn't, he enjoyed the strength of emotion of vulnerability that had been betrayed, of shame itself, the fear of revelation and the pain of rejection.
But none of those things, nice or not, were available to him here. Curiosity for curiosity's sake, an absence of desires deep or dark. Despite their flirtations, she bore no meaningful resemblance to his usual prey.
A learning experience, then, in socializing for the sake of socialization rather than contact as a form of consumption.
"I suppose," he said mildly, for he could think of no tactful way to explain that making awful things more awful had long been his past-time. Not without a conversation he had no interest in having. He'd bared as much as he cared to this night, and would offer no more than he needed to in that regard.
He grinned. "It is a matter of, shall we say, opportunity costs?" he suggested. "These things are not wasteful unto themselves, but in comparison to what one might spend time doing instead, they seem wasteful indeed. One is a thing at which I am merely adequate, while another is something at which I am magnificent." He paused. "Or so I have been told, and I choose to believe it."
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