Rhailo and Brax
Space can be so lonely, Rhailo thought bleakly as her pale hues watched the seemingly unchanging expanse of universe where it stretched endlessly before their vessel.
Lonelier when I think of him.
Exhausted as the Ahroun felt, she couldn't bring herself to sleep. That was proven out of the question as every attempt she made to rest seemed to incite dreams of her fallen Mandalorian. Love stained her heart, causing such a strangely tragic residue to take hold of her person. It bled from a wound that refused to heal under any plausible circumstance. A barricade of depression, a sea of self doubt. Her body shook with anguish for days after their departure, and when his remains were sent out into the aether of space, Rhailo couldn't help noticing the sharp pain her ravaged emotions harbored mercilessly. It wasn't attractive or becoming of the woman, so when she was with others aboard the space craft, her best option proved to be silence. Unapproachable. To not give her thoughts or opinions, as they could only pull those loosely tied drawstrings desperately keeping the flood of unresolved hurt at bay.
In the pit of her stomach was a sense of disgust as well on Brax's behalf. He was carrying half of this weight, and it wasn't his burden to bear.
He never complained though. He allotted her space, and time, and above all things, the quiet she silently pleaded for. There wasn't a slew of incessant questions directed at what her future plans might be, nor was there a barrage of remarks encouraging her to cheer up. Rhailo didn't want to cheer up. She just wanted to mourn in traditional attire of seamless black while she watched the galaxy they traversed continue in starlit sprawl as though eons of travel wouldn't be enough time to bring them home. Of course, she knew they drew closer to neighboring solar systems with each passing day, and that rekindled a hidden strength long buried beneath her layers of grief and fear. If she could face the daily condolences of the crew, she was capable of overcoming her impending terror regarding her parents.
At least she thought it was a possibility. What did she have left to lose?
The evening murmurs of flight hands dwindled as it grew later, and the artificial lights above dimmed to replicate conditions for working sleep cycles. With a glass of wine in hand, Rhailo counted another night lost to sleep, but felt nothing of it. Escaping the dreams had become her only priority in transit. Lost in personal thoughts, she hardly noticed the automatic door sliding open, though as she turned, surprise muted on her worn features. "Oh, it's you."
Brax nodded once in slow response as he stepped through her quarters. Sterile white, it looked utterly depressing in the dark, though his luminous eyes found her seated in shadows with knees pressed close to her chest. Her drink was swirled absently when she turned back towards the stretch of window. "You've been uncharacteristically quiet as of late, so I hoped we could speak."
"I don't have anything to say." Rhailo admitted, her hooded gaze drifting between stars. "Nothing you want to hear anyway."
"I find it hard to believe you would filter what you say to me. You've never been one to do such a thing." A thin smile crossed his lips as he took a seat against the window, far enough to leave her space should she choose to move. "I'd love to hear whatever it is you think I don't want to hear."
"Okay." Rhailo began calmly as she straightened, still only offering her portrait to Brax. "I can't sleep and I can't eat and sometimes, I think I can hear Demagol speaking to me. So, I try not to close my eyes. I try not to think about him." She laughed harshly, her head shaking as she continued with, "But it's so hard not to think of him." When she turned to Brax, she shrugged her shoulders as though for sure she knew the answer he was going to give. "I know you don't get it, okay? I know you think I fell head over heels in love with a foreigner just to spite the family. I know you can't understand what I felt for him. How can I ask you to?"
"You think I don't understand love?" Long fingers rose to brush through his coif of white hair. "Or that I don't understand how you could love him?"
"Maybe both."
"Well, I can assure you, I have reasoning for both of those cases. Would you like to hear why?"
It was Rhailo's turn to nod, though her downcast eyes were sign enough that she was bracing for painful backlash and tension between them. Brax chose to speak anyway.
"There was something about him that you found attractive. From the tale of your rescue, it was likely his part in assuring your freedom. He bought you, and subsequently freed you. For that, I'm in his debt to some degree, were he alive for me to pay such a debt. I don't fault your feelings towards Demagol. If anything, you feel so admirably that I'm envious I'm not granted that level of emotional strength. I might never know that intensity of love because of my shortcomings. I do know love though." Scratching under his chin, Brax looked over his huddled sister closely. "Not romantically, as you loved him, but I know that I love you dearly. I would move the stars to see you home safe, and I would slay anyone who dared try and hurt you-"
"I know Brax, and I'm sorry I implied you didn't love anyone-"
"But I would also lock you away without so much as a second thought if it were for the better good." Clearing his throat, his vision tore from the other Auroun, and settled itself in his lap.
"I love you, Rhailo, but I don't always approve of these messes you make. This whole business with Demagol and a bounty on your head? I don't know how you managed to make these issues for yourself. You only met him because you were a wanted fugitive! Rhailo, you can't possibly believe that it would end well for you. What, you were going to hunt down criminals with this mysterious stranger for the rest of your life? How? What would happen if he got angry with you in the middle of a foreign galaxy, and just decided to sell you? Or kill you?" Brax's hands clenched into tight fists against his thighs. "You didn't know him. Not after a few days together. You knew bits and pieces - just enough to love the idea of him - and that isn't right, Rhailo. Even I know that, as cold as you perceive me to be.
"There was no future there for you, and deep down, you know that. His death is fresh, and I don't want to lecture you now that he's gone, but I fear for your choices in matters to come." Rhailo had brought her free hand up to cover her teary features, but Brax pulled it back down so he could meet her gaze. "I don't want you to make the same mistakes again. I want you to be free, because no matter what love you felt for Demagol, you have always wanted freedom first and foremost."
"B-but that isn't even an option anymore, Brax!" Sobbing, Rhailo shook as she nursed her wine, her throat tight as she choked out the words. "Back home, I'm a prisoner! I don't want to go back... back to that place. I don't."
"We're not going back, Rhailo." Brax replied softly before tapping the glass with the tips of his fingers. "We're actually headed to a colony right now."
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