I've come a long way and I'm inspired to say, it's been a long time since my shit's been vibing this way,
All the pent up emotion and everything I hold dear is being spewed onto the parchment that you're viewing right here,
Now where do I put this? Any way I can hide it? I can change what the look is, like I covered and dyed it,
But to no avail, the color's bleeding right through, and I'm back to square one thinking "What should I do?"
Should I give
in and become one with this ocean? Path of least resistance, just succumb to the motions,
Or should I fight that, bite back, control the emotions? I've had a long-winded battle with this painful devotion
Regardless of time, man, I
always come back, my heart always feels strong, so
how do I numb that?
More harm than good, now where is the sun at? Every start I fall apart as if I'm locked up in combat
So escape is impossible and I'm left with one choice, do I let it consume me or do I lower my voice?
Is there really a point? Do I have that much freedom? I've been surrounded by friends but told myself I don't need 'em
Then I buckle, and break, a mistake, I was
wrong, too much faith in myself, I've been relying too long
I count back from ten thinking then it'll end before my mind starts running circles again and again
Don't get the wrong idea, I'm calming my dyspnea, I've matured over time and I think that there could be a-
A way that I can do this, for sure I can improve, I'm taking back my sanity with
move after
move
With every step I take and the momentum I'm giving it, I'm steering away from all the outrage I'm living in
Righting all my wrongs 'till they're small, meager, driven thin and everyone who's crossed me, I'm finally forgiving them
No more wasted hate, no more darkened deceptions, I think that sometimes people forget that words can be weapons
They're double-edged because of the way they can pry, they get in your skin, mind, body,
inside
And endless they spread until they're festering, fed, but now I part from the bad and pick the good up instead
I find that it's easier than to take up the stress, with the strength I possess to this now I confess
That it's time for me to pick myself up,
move on, I swear that I will live by these rights 'till I'm gone
I'm aware of my faults, but don't you try to incite them, you should love me because of them, not just despite them
They're part of my being, something I can't dismiss, so here now, I ask you, "Are you ready for this?"
Do I give up this far like I always had then or do I push myself to be better again and again?
The conflict is timeless and does its best now to ail me, I've gotten to this point, nerves, don't you dare fail me
I refuse to move backwards with these thoughts and the stacked words, I've done it so much and I remember how
that hurts
Never again,
no, I know that's a lie, nobody's perfect but by god do they try
But it isn't in vain no matter how much you falter, I once was abyssal but now I stand on the altar
Then I lift, and rise, a hope,
I am whole, the journey is the mission and the endgame's the goal
I'll carry all this weight on my back for the time being, look to my ambitions, that's where you'll find me
Constantly forward without a chance to regress, I've accepted the responsibility of this mess
And I hold it with courage, duty, honor and dignity, not a shred of hesitation, doubt doesn't live in me
I know who I am, I'm not afraid of adversity, I'm here and I have grown, every curse is a gift to me
It encourages challenge and I'm yearning to taste it because every shot you don't take is a shot you have wasted
I'm not satisfied with simple, dull, or mediocre, but I don't embrace insanity,
no, I'm not The Joker
I'm just a man with a pen and I only intend to be the one I needed to be before again and again
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